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The Beginning of the End
Hi guys,
I know I haven’t posted in a while, but there is a good reason. For the past five months, I have been investing my extra time in a program called Young Entrepreneur’s Academy. It is a great program that helps teenagers develop and start there own business. Mine is, of course, a blog. It will be launching soon and I hope that all of you will check it out.
I will do a full release after the investor panel, on April 5th, 2018. I am excited to start having more of a format in my posts and hopefully see it grow further. As most of you could probably guess starting this blog wasn’t about having a business, it was about dealing with some of my personal issues that I was having at that time. Now that I have had time to deal with some of those things, I am now able to truly pursue something I am passionate about in an organized way.
Thank you to all who have stuck with me.
With love,
Katie.
Begin
In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was formless and empty, and darkness covered the deep waters. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters…
Genesis 1:1-2 (NLT)
“My Son,” The Father spoke. “Come here and talk with me and the Holy Ghost.”
“Yes Father?” the Son asked kneeling at his Fathers feet.
“I would like to show you how to make light and time and space. Would you walk with me and help me in my endeavor?”
“Of course Father! Show me how this is done!”
Read Genesis 1:3-25
Later…
“Father?” The Son poised.
“Yes?” The Father responded.
“I would like to form something from the dust that you have spoken into being. If you would watch while I form them. Let them be like us in manner, being able to create and commune and collaborate as us. If you would allow me?”
The Father smiled, set in his joy for the wonderment of his Son’s plan. “Let all you have said be and more. Let them rule over this place we have created. Also, let them receive the breathe of the Spirit so that they bear our image on the earth.”
The Father watched as his Son set about forming what they called man. When the Son was finished the Father called upon the Holy Ghost to breathe into the man and he awoke and thought for the first time. All of YEHWEH watched as the man was bewildered and amazed at the world that He had created for him and himself.
Read Genesis 1:26-31
In the final day of creation YEHWEH looked at the man and everything he had done and announced that it was finished and very good. He spent His time teaching the man what to do and how to do things, and they dwelled in each others presence.
The Blame Game
So many of the earthly struggles that we face have to do with the false identification of the enemy. We allow ourselves to perceive only that which our eyes can see, not accounting for the unseen forces in this world. Women blame men for the centuries of mistreatment. Men blame women for the fall of mankind. Children blame parents for not raising them better. Blacks blame whites. Americans blame terrorists. Christians blame muslims. Muslims blame Christians. The list goes on.
Lisa Bevere, New York Times Bestselling Author of Girls with Swords how to Carry your Cross like a Hero compares this “to trying to destroy a tree by picking all its fruit.” It isn’t enough to just fight earthly battles against unearthly forces. We must wage war in our vary heart of hearts, because when we fell we etched within ourselves a mark, a stain, commonly called sin. This sin is the root of all evil, and it goes so far into our heart that we can’t possibly unearth it all. So instead we try to fight it on earthly terms, ignoring the fact that it is still growing from inside us. But the Battle of the Soul is not hopeless for when we trust God with our hearts he tenderly but firmly removes all the roots of our sin stained life, sometimes leaving surgical scars, but they are removed from us forever. Instead of trying to make yourself look holy by playing “the Blame Game”, and thus falling into the lie of generations that it is hopeless, be renewed through Christ’s Grace.
Ephesians 6:12
For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. (NLT)
Empty
What is left to save me from this hell
Pain endured but never to tell
And if I leave I’m left alone
Instead of being stuck living like a clone
Just one of many not unique or a beauty
But if I leave I’m seen as snooty
A “Too Good” “Stuck up” or “Privileged Kid”
They say these words like they aren’t on my grid
Like I am somehow perfect
But they don’t understand that I am wrecked
Completely broken, torn up, dejected
Totally affected
By circumstances out of my control
So instead of perfecting myself I sought with my whole
Heart, willing to be stained by him; forever marked
Forgot those who mocked, I looked up, and embarked
Upon my journey to be close to him indeed
As I did I was decreed
EMPTY.
AND.
FILLED.
Feelings or Flaws
I am surrounded by people who say only your feelings truly matter.
Everything else is an illusion, a trick.
But in my mind I find myself just as confused as I was before.
For how could everything I perceive be a lie?
And if it is just a cruel trick in my minds eye
then how can I trust what those who tell me this say?
And even if what they say is true
Am I really suppose to bind myself to the whims of my feelings
letting them take me over as master of my body?
I hate some of my own feelings: feelings of lust and greed,
hatred and murder, slander and adultery,
things so perverse I am ashamed to say them aloud.
And what is this part of me that says that my feelings are mine to control
when everyone else says that there is only feeling?
Then there is the question of morals.
What are morals Really? Some primal instinct to survive?
A relic of the stone age long since past? A random collection of more complex feelings?
Who says that killing is right if it is in self defense,
or a lie is less wrong than an act of violence?
Do I find myself alone?
The only one with these wanderings in my thoughts?
Am I really alone in these quandaries of mine?
In my heart of hearts I know myself to be more than the simple structure of my body
or the random feelings that flow through me.
Know there is nothing certain about the path that I am on,
but I am determined to follow through no matter how many may oppose me
for not following the popular view of life, or seek
to make my life my difficult because of it.
And for the first time in my life I am certain of one thing. One thing.
The rock under my feet.
Drama, Oh Drama
Drama, oh Drama.
I have found that no matter how many times people claim
to be against it they always find some way to be a part of it.
But why this endless pursuit
of something so distasteful?
Perhaps it is like a drug.
Yes, I think that a good comparison.
A drug that brings you in slowly at first
but soon becomes apart of your very nature.
In some perverse fashion you derive meaning from it.
Drama, oh Drama
Maybe you don’t really exist.
Perhaps your an excuse that people
use to justify
any ill intent or condemnation of things that make them uncomfortable.
As if life was suppose to be something so
absurd as comfortable.
Life is NOT made for your comfort.
It is meant for you to be refined
like a sword is forged in the flames
And beat into a suitable shape for battle
Drama, oh Drama
Given a choice I think you would consume my life.
But every time I think of you I can’t help but think of
My heavenly father
and of the brokenness of man.
I think of how God places us in the midst of what we call “drama”
in order that we may draw those who are willing to listen to us
back into the arms
of the Lord our God
out of deception and deceit.
Drama, oh Drama
perhaps this is the real secret
that we should live in the fire of life and of ‘drama’,
but apart from it all the same.
However, not on our own power
but on the God of everlasting-life.
Temptations
It is often said that “God will not tempt you beyond what you can bear”, however I have found that is not the case for me. I lust and envy and hate as freely as if I didn’t even know God. So is there something wrong with me? Did I miss something? Actually, yes I did. A BIG something. You see I was trying to remove God from my life when I said that. God is the rock; He is the Cornerstone, not me. I couldn’t wake up in the morning without him holding my atoms together let alone stand against the devil and his army marching against us. God never intended us to be the power behind our own lives. He was always meant to fill that position.
I am reminded of chapter nineteen in Acts where the apostles are casting out demons in Jesus’ name, so a group of unbelievers think “hey lets use Jesus’ name and cast out some demons”. At the end of their escapade they end up beaten and bloody because the demon did not recognize them as a follower of Christ. God wants us to lean on him so that when the inevitable storm(s) comes he is there to steady us and protect us.
Women v.s. Men
I recently read a post that said, “people think men and women are equal, which is false because women are so much better than men.” I read things like that and my stomach turns, not because it is a thought occurring in somebody else’s mind but because I have had thoughts like that. For the longest time I believed much of what that sentence says, not that I would have ever said anything like that aloud. I allowed the devil to infect my thoughts so much that I could hardly even think of calling a guy a friend. I thought men were impulsive and simple. Then one day I was talking to my brother, who at one point in our conversation said, “You must not think very highly of men.” Those few words struck me so hard that I began to tear up in my room and I begged God to forgive me of my offenses against him and against any whom I had turnned away from because they were “male”. I asked God to renew my mind and to give me a friend with whom I could build a strong relationship with.
I have been reading the book of Genesis and the creation story. God creates both man and woman to compliment each other and build on each other’s strengths as equals but also as unique individuals. God never says that there shall be no difference between man and woman but rather God uses there unique qualities to strengthen each other. Only the devil sees differences or unique qualities as a bad thing and tries to separate and divide us. God always intended us to be different from each other so that we could work and complete each other in all our different relationships: Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, Friend, Coworker, Wife, Husband. All of these relationships fulfill God’s Design. But when the relationship with God was broken all of these fell apart and the only way to fix yourself is to go to God and seek rest in his plan for you.
The Peaceful Presents of our Powerful Prince
O Goodness Where have you gone
Your light is my delight
Your presents is where I find peace
Yet I look away and try to find
My delight in earthly shadows
How foolish is my wayward heart
That turns away at every whisp of wind
Lord give me strength
To seek you whilst proclaiming your word
Which is wonderfully made for whomever
wonders about its secret treasure
which is Jesus Our Savior.
The Beautiful Under Siege 